It’s really strange for me to be thinking so much about my own personal growth.
I’ve never really thought as much about it, until now. I think most of my life I just really went with the flow. I tried to control things here and there, but I’m at the point now where I’m just done with waiting. It doesn’t make sense to me anymore to sit around and wait for what I want. I think this year, I’ve definitely been in more of a “take it and it can be yours” kind of mentality.
And I think it’s working.
I’m still very focused on Ruby July, and every day I’m working towards that goal a little bit more. I have no idea as to how successful it could be, or what its staying power might be, but that doesn’t really matter now. I’m hoping that the more I refuse to give up on it, the more power it will have to actually be something.
I’ve been doing a lot of research on what’s out there, and what kinds of things seem to be doing well. During this process, I’m also trying to really figure out what I want my focus to be. Everybody kind of has their style worked out, and I’m eventually getting to that point. It’s challenging, and it’s also so refreshing.
I haven’t felt challenged, or even really cared about improving my talent and growth as a designer, since college. It seems like people can get easily caught up in the day-to-day routine of life, and forget to take each day as something special. I’ve done that for years. Since I moved from Wisconsin to Minnesota, I’ve been working full-time, and I’ve let that absorb most of my life force. I’ve reopened my eyes in the past few weeks, and I’m shifting my focus to myself instead of the mundane routine that eats so many of us up.
Even though Ruby July is only a little nugget in the making right now, it’s probably one of the best things I’ve done for myself. I hope you have things like that in your life, and if you don’t, go find it! I think everyone needs to have something that they love, and something that really gives them purpose and drive.
I’ve been thinking about what I want this blog to even be, and at first I just wanted it to be straight-up business. But I don’t like that approach anymore, and I want for it to have a more personal touch. Sometimes I’ll write about myself, sometimes I’ll write about things I find that I like (recipes, songs, the like), and the other times it will be strictly Ruby July. I want to give this more of a heartbeat, and to be something that people can relate to.
If you have any opinions or comments, please feel free to share! I’d love to hear from you!